What's Going On?

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It’s been one of those times. I keep meaning to post here. I have this great idea. It starts out fine. “Today, I’m going to sit right down at my computer and jot off a completely entertaining post about…” Yeah, from my lips to God’s ears. It never seems to happen that way.

Now, I know what you’re thinking. “Oh no! Carol’s in one of her funks again!” Yes, it’s true. You know how I get …how I can be when I am in one of my funks. But, this time? Nope, it’s not like that. I’m not actually in any kind of a funk at all. In fact, I’m feeling quite a lot like…normal.

So, what’s going on? What’s up with Carol? Where has she been and why is she not posting here?

Let’s see….answers….answers….

For starters, I have been sick a lot this year. Bad allergies, really bad allergies and some other stuff. Made me feel crappy. Totally crappy and completely not like posting a lot. Yes, I know, that’s only but one excuse. There are others. Haven’t been shooting a lot either and that, well, that’s really bad (it’s usually what leads to the other, more well-known type of funks, mind you. The Carol beast, it would appear, cannot live without shooting. Well, she only goes so far before the batteries wind down, she gets grumpy, and then all sorts of funks start to unleash themselves.)

I got my new computer. (Finally!) But, embarrassingly enough I have yet to set it up. What kind of a person waits and waits until they announce a new computer, pulls the trigger, paces with heavy feet around the house until they deliver it all the way from China (Horray!) and then, when it finally arrives, neglects to set it up? Ahem. Queue theme music….”Hello, my name is Carol and I am a complete dork….”

In case you’re wondering, it’s not just the computer that’s been un-set-up (is that even a word?) Anybody out there been trying to call me? So sorry but, I don’t seem to have a phone!

It’s true, my great and worthy Snowflakes, it’s true, horribly true. The things you’ve read about me…the things he said….well, ok, maybe nobody really is writing about me and there really is no “he” in sight but, it really *is* true. I’ve got an iPhone 5 and I have yet to set it up as well. Been sitting in the box since like November sometime and I miss it, really I do.

It all started when I tried to plug it into my computer and then my iTunes told me it was out of date so I tried to update that but then my iTunes could not update because my computer was so out of date so I tried to get a new computer but then that was delayed and….you see where this is going? It’s like an infinite loop cascading into a downward spiral that’s not ending well. It’s a swan dive into an abyss of misery that nobody quite expected and now everybody’s looking around for a stepladder. It’s…well, you can fill in your own metaphor. It’s just….ugly, ok? Me no like!

So, now I’ve got old computer, still kind of working…sitting there, but I feel guilty for using it, since spiffy new computer is waiting to be unpacked. I have to setup new router, new computer, new printer, new iPhone. This should be like “Weee! I’m so excited! I have all this cool new stuff” Instead, I’m more like, “Meh. Eh. Ick. I’ll do that tomorrow!” Did I mention my house is not clean either? I feel so…buried…completely buried under stuff I just need to do and yet keep putting off until tomorrow or some “better time” that never seems to come.

And, this sort of a funk? Why, I can’t confess to ever having this sort of a funk, ever before. Never. Ever. (To get all philosophical and quote Taylor Swift on you.) Just what am I to do? How will this end? Will I ever have tech stuff that just….works? Why me? Can Calgon take me away? I feel like I’m so…right on the verge of having everything the way I want it. So close….so close and yet….so far, so very, very far. Argh! Can you hear the pangs of agony from where you sit, because I sure can?

So now this brings us to present day. I have to come here and apologize. I have to say I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not being on Facebook so much. I’m sorry for posting so infrequently. I’m sorry I’ve been so lax. I’m sorry I’m not around so much. I’m sorry I’m not shooting so much. I’m sorry I’m not shooting at all. I should be cleaning my house, fixing my new devices, setting up my new studio and getting back to work, I really should be. Shouldn’t I? Instead, I don’t have a phone, no computer, no nothing…camera battery ain’t even charged. Oh good grief!

Where will this end? Will I finally just admit I need a bit of a break…a bit of time to get this all sorted out and then come back strong again? Or can I just string it along and do all of this piecemeal? Honestly, I just don’t know. I feel so buried under and yet, you know as well as I do, that things in my world never seem to slow down, not for this, not for nothing. I live that kind of a life, I live that way and, heck, I’m even used to it (sort of.) I mean, it’s been worse than this before and I’ve always loved it that way. What’s going on?

So, bottom line? Maybe hiatus. Maybe a little bit of a break. Maybe just time to…you know…to sort things. It’s not a funk…it’s just…I need more time. There simply aren’t enough hours in the day and there’s only one me and she only dances as fast as she possibly can. (Does that even make sense? I hope so!) I promise, it’s not a funk. I’m not trying to quit on ya. I’m not about to go out and get all civilized and edu-macated and do the Huck Finn dance anytime soon now. It’s just that….well, I have a lot on my plate and it’s not getting any emptier. And that, my dear Snowflakes, that needs to change.

I promise to try and keep you posted but that’s the big news for now. Hopefully, it will all just get worked out soon and you’ll never even know this ever happened. “What funk?” you’ll say, as I jaunt off to next location, camera in tow, taking magical shots, with you along for the ride. I promise, that day is coming…it will be here again…it’s just…behind the scenes….the setup…it has to…it has to happen first. I hope you’ll understand.

Until next time…